I know it has been a while and all the faithful readers who enjoyed my few posts so far (in other words me) have been waiting on bated breath for the next episode. Well this is a short and definitely a journal entry more than a post. Well on my way to my second bachelors, went for the arts so I could get some sweet sweet government money, in psychology. I'm hoping to go on to get my doctorate in Cognitive Science after my 401k is fully vested so I can leave the job I've been avoiding doing work at for a couple months straight now.
Well I doubt I'll be able to do significant posts daily since this got blocked at work, but I will try to post on things that pop into my head that I need to put down somewhere unless someone objects to that..............that's what I thought.
Tuesday, March 6, 2012
Saturday, October 2, 2010
Time to talk about those things are supposedly a waste of time
Video games are an oddly polarizing subject. I for one am all for them and in turn they take up a good deal of my time. I enjoy all kinds of video games if they are done right. I'm an expert at Guitar Hero. I've beaten all the Halo games on Legendary and all the Mass Effect games multiple times. I have multiple level 80's in WoW and those are just the tip of the iceberg.
Now I know as of late the stereotype has been eased and although I would consider myself a bit of a nerd I don't think I fit the stereotype too well. I have been playing sports my whole life. I have played football, baseball, basketball, volleyball, bowling, tennis, lacrosse, rugby, and I'm sure more I'm not thinking of at the moment. I played tennis in college and I still play football today for a semi pro team. So not to toot my own horn (which I know I've been doing all along), but I am pretty good at sports. I also have a rather robust social life which mostly involves getting drunk on the weekends and some bar league sports.
My point here is that the stigma of the gamer is overly exaggerated. Of course most stereotypes are bred from truth and there are surely the gamers out there that personify the image. Don't get me wrong I will make jokes all day about any stereotypes including gamers, but thats just what they are, jokes. People get too caught up with what other people think and too often take what other people say to heart when it is only meant in jest. I would just like to go on record that a person can be a jock, a drunk, a gamer and at the same not give two shits about what anyone else thinks about it.
Friday, October 1, 2010
Two for two with kind of depressing posts
Greg Giraldo wasn't the most well known comedian, but anyone who has ever seen a roast on Comedy Central knows of his greatness. He was never afraid to push the boundaries of what now constitutes for politically correct and every person who didn't have a stick up their ass was better off from it. Well he is now dead and the reports are that it was an accidental overdose. This brings up a serious topic that people seem to ignore.
Some people have problems with addiction and some people have troubling issues with depression. Both of these things can lead to very dangerous outcomes, but no one ever talks about the grey areas. Everyone assumes people who drink or do drugs a lot are addicts and people are quick to assume a situation like this would be because of depression or a drug addiction. Of course Greg didn't help the case against that assumption in an interview he had a while back where he stated that he was dwelling too much on his failures and had trouble embracing his successes. When you look at comedians they are more often than not a self deprecating species so I do not find it difficult to see him saying those things. The point here being that it is hard to really tell if this all happened as a consequence of depression or strictly a tragic accident.
I like drugs honestly so of course I am not going to be a homer for the overdose theory, but at the same time I don't think it was strictly accidental. From what it sounds like he was using the drugs to get away from the failures he thought so greatly defined his life and he succeeded in the most definite way possible, but with no intent on taking that far. Using drugs is a dangerous thing and using in a situation where you are trying to escape is even worse. It is hard for any person to control themselves and it is sad when things like this happen. The real tragedy here is the fact that he only saw failures where every other person who has seen him perform and I'm sure every person who knew him, saw only pure comedic talent. Even if that talent was purely to piss off a lot of people who were too tightly wound.
Some people have problems with addiction and some people have troubling issues with depression. Both of these things can lead to very dangerous outcomes, but no one ever talks about the grey areas. Everyone assumes people who drink or do drugs a lot are addicts and people are quick to assume a situation like this would be because of depression or a drug addiction. Of course Greg didn't help the case against that assumption in an interview he had a while back where he stated that he was dwelling too much on his failures and had trouble embracing his successes. When you look at comedians they are more often than not a self deprecating species so I do not find it difficult to see him saying those things. The point here being that it is hard to really tell if this all happened as a consequence of depression or strictly a tragic accident.
I like drugs honestly so of course I am not going to be a homer for the overdose theory, but at the same time I don't think it was strictly accidental. From what it sounds like he was using the drugs to get away from the failures he thought so greatly defined his life and he succeeded in the most definite way possible, but with no intent on taking that far. Using drugs is a dangerous thing and using in a situation where you are trying to escape is even worse. It is hard for any person to control themselves and it is sad when things like this happen. The real tragedy here is the fact that he only saw failures where every other person who has seen him perform and I'm sure every person who knew him, saw only pure comedic talent. Even if that talent was purely to piss off a lot of people who were too tightly wound.
Thursday, September 30, 2010
Can't Hurt To Try
I'll be honest, basically I don't expect anyone out there to ever read this. It would be nice if that happens, but lower expectations almost always yield better results. More or less this will just be a journal open to the public where I will rant and just talk about all the things that run through my head while I am trying to avoid doing any actual work at work. I will try to post one a day and just see how it goes from there. I'll try to vaguely introduce myself to no one with this first post.
As you can probably tell from the title I am quite bored with where my life has ended up and from talking with friends and family I don't think I am alone. The difference I find is that I don't think I can sit and take it as well as most other people I know. Some people are lucky and can find something that they love to do or at least like to do, but most people just end up doing something they are good at and hating it to their very core. I of course fall in the latter category.
I am smart, but I live my life in the dumbest ways possible. I don't think I've ever really encountered any intellectual challenges my whole life. I never tried in school at any level because I didn't have to. I went to college in an area of expertise that I knew came easily to me. I then got a job with that degree and have been grinding through that ever since. The problem is I have trouble seeing where it goes from here. In middle school there was high school. In high school there was college. In college there was a job. What's next? My job does not allow for much advancement and I make more money than I alone need. The idea of doing what I do everyday for the next 40 years to reach retirement does not really seem that appealing to me. My whole life has been some sort of advancement and now at 25 I feel like my life has stalled.
The idea from here is to try and get back to school and start a completely different path, but at the moment that is not an option. I bought a house at the peak of the market, bought a car that I still owe quite a bit on, and I'm not fully invested in my 401k for another 3 years (damned if I let this company take it's money back). So I wait. I wait and I get even more bored.
As you can probably tell from the title I am quite bored with where my life has ended up and from talking with friends and family I don't think I am alone. The difference I find is that I don't think I can sit and take it as well as most other people I know. Some people are lucky and can find something that they love to do or at least like to do, but most people just end up doing something they are good at and hating it to their very core. I of course fall in the latter category.
I am smart, but I live my life in the dumbest ways possible. I don't think I've ever really encountered any intellectual challenges my whole life. I never tried in school at any level because I didn't have to. I went to college in an area of expertise that I knew came easily to me. I then got a job with that degree and have been grinding through that ever since. The problem is I have trouble seeing where it goes from here. In middle school there was high school. In high school there was college. In college there was a job. What's next? My job does not allow for much advancement and I make more money than I alone need. The idea of doing what I do everyday for the next 40 years to reach retirement does not really seem that appealing to me. My whole life has been some sort of advancement and now at 25 I feel like my life has stalled.
The idea from here is to try and get back to school and start a completely different path, but at the moment that is not an option. I bought a house at the peak of the market, bought a car that I still owe quite a bit on, and I'm not fully invested in my 401k for another 3 years (damned if I let this company take it's money back). So I wait. I wait and I get even more bored.
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