I'll be honest, basically I don't expect anyone out there to ever read this. It would be nice if that happens, but lower expectations almost always yield better results. More or less this will just be a journal open to the public where I will rant and just talk about all the things that run through my head while I am trying to avoid doing any actual work at work. I will try to post one a day and just see how it goes from there. I'll try to vaguely introduce myself to no one with this first post.
As you can probably tell from the title I am quite bored with where my life has ended up and from talking with friends and family I don't think I am alone. The difference I find is that I don't think I can sit and take it as well as most other people I know. Some people are lucky and can find something that they love to do or at least like to do, but most people just end up doing something they are good at and hating it to their very core. I of course fall in the latter category.
I am smart, but I live my life in the dumbest ways possible. I don't think I've ever really encountered any intellectual challenges my whole life. I never tried in school at any level because I didn't have to. I went to college in an area of expertise that I knew came easily to me. I then got a job with that degree and have been grinding through that ever since. The problem is I have trouble seeing where it goes from here. In middle school there was high school. In high school there was college. In college there was a job. What's next? My job does not allow for much advancement and I make more money than I alone need. The idea of doing what I do everyday for the next 40 years to reach retirement does not really seem that appealing to me. My whole life has been some sort of advancement and now at 25 I feel like my life has stalled.
The idea from here is to try and get back to school and start a completely different path, but at the moment that is not an option. I bought a house at the peak of the market, bought a car that I still owe quite a bit on, and I'm not fully invested in my 401k for another 3 years (damned if I let this company take it's money back). So I wait. I wait and I get even more bored.
